Everon - Carousel lyrics

I hope one day I will grow out of this Then I will leave this battlefield Good or bad depends on your point of view And I can see things from both sides Just one more cla**ic case of catch-22 Things don't have a simple truth So you ask where this is leading me Only I don't have an answer yet Seeing things black and white is for the weak I'm strong enough for shades of grey While searching for the perfect compromise I am driven to despair So my thoughts are spinning around For I know my problem well And I wonder, will I ever get Out of this carousel You are trying in vain To reach me with your hands But all that I can say Is I hope you understand So I am caught between the chairs again While everybody else does fine It's just my nature to move back and forth Always trying not to offend I cannot decide whether to refuse Or to reach out for your helping hand So my thoughts are spinning around For I know my problem well And I wonder, will I ever get Out of this carousel You are trying in vain To reach me with your hands But all that I can say Is I hope you understand Meanwhile I'm trying to make up my mind Feeling like I'm paralysed What's the sense of it all, is it... Because of you and I Because of fear Or just because of all That I wish to have near It's about really stupid things But they keep growing until They seem to tear me apart So my thoughts are spinning around For I know my problem well And I wonder, will I ever get Out of this carousel You are trying in vain To reach me with your hands You ask for explanations Until things make sense Well, I don't have any So all that I can say is I hope you understand It is because you and I Because of fear Because of all That I wish to have near It's about really stupid things Of no major size But they keep on growing Until a part of me dies