Ever Since - A Letter For The Lady Who Haunts My Nights lyrics

Despite myself I make the most of this long sleepless night To jot down these lines We say that the heart has its reasons That reason doesn't always understand I hope mine isn't lost I will have needed time to understand To write to help me come out of this mist To know how to find the right words Even though I'm aware that you won't read them But I know you are here ! I feel your gaze turn on me But what does it matter ? I have to empty my mind, make my heart cry What could I have done to help you ? I would have covered you with my skin If I had been able to remove it... Just to warm up you In your shaking arms, I would have rolled off my strength So that you might defend yourself Pierced by pain Your body would have pa**ed through mine And we would have shared it But now, I have to relearn to live... Whithout you Afflicted by much sorrow I try to cross life... To have been able to write all these thoughts Which obsess and torment me Relieves my conscience I only have to forget everything Start anew And give my life a new meaning...