Eve - Amazed lyrics

I'm sick of being a target of hatred I'm sick of waitin for life to change I'm sick of feeling like it's all been wasted In Stayin in a game that become completely derranged I'm sick of the pain of watching my fathers life slip away Day by day the same sh** f**ing with my brain I'm sickly afraid he's alread begun to decay in a way I can't prevent or restrain him from being heaven sent My heart is bent backwards this hurt is a stain That doesn't ever seem to fade I'm amazed at how the hate has stayed ablaze Like how I'm sick of the sh** that I have to take And all my life I've embraced cuz I can't control my face or my race I can't control being a disgrace I can't control how much my family gets paid I'm poor, and I'm not ashamed, I'm chained But I'm sick of always feeling like I'm the one to blame For the same reason I rap it, ditch the chains, switching lanes Aiming high, fighting through the rain and the clouds I come out proud, with every fear I had slain, be amazed Man I know I'm fifteen but I still have problems Like a puzzle, no rebu*tle, cuz now I gotta solve em It's obvious I'm not flawless, I'm on the bottom But shockless I promise Someday I'll be the hottest And all my worries will be on college But man who am I kidding? my heart is sore And girls come into my life and only hurt is more Worthless who*es, why move further for? Its all fun and games til someone gets hurt So why love others for? Bonds were supposed to be torn But here I am fighting on my own Not much worse than a girl fighting on the phone All my fire is gone, its like lighting a stone I'm prepared to live life alone Just hand me a f**ing microphone Im lyrically gifted always staying original My words are all spiritual but all you care about is physical When I rhyme you might catch sight of something mythical Despite the dimmed lights in my life, I'll provide you a miracle Every syllable I speak Lyrically complete Im generally mystique Like memories, I am weak I follow guys, but I lead I apologize for the breed Of hollowed eyes I conceive My conscious mind depletes Confidence is the beat but I got Lost in it instantly I'm polished with different jesus like Consequental religiously devine Within time I'm the only rapper out speaking my mind But no one listens to why the f**in do I even try? pick a side already It's what I said and I meant it Lyrically im preaching life but I'm dead in every sentence The beats a bed and im a blanket Im seeing red no way to fake it Or escape it, I don't want it Heres my soul now f**ing take it My demon is fed you are a witness It's a sickness I bet now you listeners will pay attention My world is enraged and that's the way it will stay My life will never change, now sit back and be amazed