ETSWHORE - Suburban lyrics

How am I meant to feel about myself in this situation All the times I've tried and there's no signification I've been stuck on this sh** with you for a year How can't you see that all I want is for you to be here We joke about it all, act like it's all alright I'm pretty sure you know, I think about you all night This effort, i'm trying, but never make any progress I tell you, and hint you, but then you just digress If maybe you will listen, you'd see what I can do To get into your mind, have my heart inside of you But no matter how I try, it's really all I can Whilst I'm on my own crying, you're with another man I feel insane, and stupid, I really can't explain I guess the feeling's mutual when you hear my f**ing name I'll try, for months, but I will never be your main I guess all I have to say, is the feeling's the same I write all that I can, so you know how I feel I know I am insane, but this just feels so real Expression through a joke, how it seemed at the start It took a twisted turn when my mind just fell apart Writing about being fisted just to have a little laugh Turned into something deeper which keeps my heart breaking in half I wrote about some bullsh**, I did it for the fun And now my songs are only truthful because you've since become the one I feel insane, and stupid, I really can't explain I guess the feeling's mutual when you hear my f**ing name I'll try, for months, but I will never be your main I guess all I have to say, is the feeling's the same