Ethel Cain - Gold Cross lyrics

{Verse 1} Last night I blew you a kiss, I hope that you got it Underneath you I told you a lie, I hope that you bought it Strangers touch me in my dreams if I go to bed sober When the edge of the curtains turn while I'll know that it's over {Chorus} And you see things for what they are And I see what they'll never be And God can make mistakes but he made an example of me And who could really love someone who's that fu*king ugly {Verse 2} Leaving his cum in the upholstery, always picking it out like a bad memory They all say that it's fine 'cause they don't know the cycle like I do You don't know what it's like tryna love while you heal and you don't get to preach if you don't know how it feels to have every last inch of your body invaded like I do Woke up a saint, fell asleep a martyr Would you do the same things to your own daughter? Still I tried saying "I love you" through a mouthful of dirt Keep parts of dead things in the freezer outside wondering if they suffered when they were alive Does God make ? things just to watch them get hurt? {Chorus} And you see things for what they are And I see what they'll never be God can make mistakes like he made an example of me And who could really love someone who's that fu*king ugly {Outro} That gold cross swings only for me In Jesus's name it kills me slowly That gold cross swings only for me In Jesus's name it kills me slowly