Estrange - Brittle Thread lyrics

I breathe in deeply And the air suffuses my lungs Fills me with life I never asked for The stillborn got away so easily A stupid thought but that's how it feels All I need waits by the horizon I try to reach it over and over again The despair keeps on eating me Whispering "It's all in vain" I'm so old chained to fear Without any hope Still I don't know who I am My life is that brittle thread Everything is so insecure Where will I find Someone to care for this? This failure personified in me And when will I do what I know is right? When will a change come into sight?