Esseljay - Die Before Your d**h lyrics

Imagine yourself at the top of mountain, looking for the fountain of youth Well I been searching all my life and I haven't even found the truth Til one gold day when I met an old sage and he said that the fountain is you I said you? He said no you The fountain of youth it lies inside So k** all those lies inside Damn near commit suicide I said die? He said die You gotta die a couple times You're not a body with a soul You're a soul in a vessel You think it's gone be simple But the Lord is gonna test you So he made your worst enemy To see if you can channel enough energy To cleanse the inner you. The inner me But switch it up, don't give it up Gotta fight until your health goes Never fall victim to a part of yourself. No [Hook] I told him, this life wasn't made for me So I gotta zone out. I gotta daydream But my dreams all turn into nightmares I swear them devils never fight fair Wanna make me suffer while I'm here Then take my soul and take me there I really don't think I can fight til the end of my life Not even til the end of the night I feel like my ends at the end of a knife That's the only way I see to put an end to the strife 3 people hold onto me Hope they'll be alright when I leave He said give yourself back to God He'll take your soul home I see that you been waiting for salvation here for so long You don't know the half, I don't even feel like trying And who would wanna fight when you're suffering like I am This is all truth I wish that I could say I'm lying And who would wanna live, when your living feels like dying? [Hook] I said, suicides not a viable option So why should I drink this concoction? Tried to put one in my head from a Glock 10 Millimeter automatic, got no options God got another plan for me and I know this Gotta stay alive, and I gotta stay focused Change in your mind frame might not notice Hell is the hottest but Earth is the coldest Life ain't nice, neither is a knife Neither is a gun, n***a neither is a pipe Tryna stay the course but I just ain't right Tryna air my thoughts but I just can't write Tryna love my life but my life don't love me back But when I leave it'll want me back And when I spaz it won't react And the world is gone be black And I gotta stay alive, gotta keep on living And I gotta keep trying, gotta keep trying, to be forgiven Your d**h is destined from the beginning, and this I know So I'll wait until my destiny and fate come take me home [Hook]