Eskupe - My Story lyrics

[Intro: Phora] Yeah, this is for anyone who's ever had a broken dream Or a f**ed up childhood, never lose hope [Verse 1: Phora] See I was raised by a single mother No father figure, little sister, never had a brother Never had another man teach me how to be one Yeah, momma had a man, but he was never calling me son And even if he did yo I would never take him serious Cause people say they love me, but it's funny Cause I don't think they know what love really is Cause love ain't when you hurt a person Love ain't avoiding the problem, you should be getting involved Love ain't, when you pick somebody up by the neck Then you grab his head and you slam it right into the wall I was a troubled kid in school, so I just kept to myself Psychologists ordered me medicine, it never did help Cause every time I took it, I was never myself I wasn't G, I never had a strap next to my belt Just a regular kid that never joined the sports team And every time I'd tried to talk to a girl, she'd ignore me Started hanging around stupid kids and broke a few laws Had a few problems, painted a few walls But one day, something happened that changed my life forever Something that I'll always remember I said one day, something happened that changed my life forever Something that I'll always remember Check [Verse 2: Phora] I was walking home after school with two friends from my cla** And then I seen a sketchy face walk past But at the time I didn't think of it much Cause 'round here there's always sketchy cats, tweakers and such So I just kept walking till I got to King's Drive Then seen a bunch of motherf**ers giving me the stink eye They started surrounding me, stopped me in my place And right outside the circle I seen a familiar face A cat that I used to be tight with Never had no problems with him But I guess he's smoking some nice sh** He came right towards me I said, "f** it, then fine, let's catch a fair one" Then caught a cheap shot from behind I ran, they tripped me and caught me They stomped me and kicked me Kicks to my face, punches to my ribs and my kidneys Then what happened next, you just might not believe But everybody scattered, I was trying to breathe Students, parents, and teachers, their watching me bleed But nobody did sh**, I was watching 'em leave As I was dying, bleeding, losing my conscious Flashed backs of reminders of things I've never accomplished Everything turned white, then everything was fine No more worries, nothing on my mind No pain, no nothing, I guess it was my time Then my whole life flashed right in front of my eyes But all of the sudden I snapped back to reality Took a look around but no ambulance was surrounding me Guess this is how it ends, huh? I guess this is what my momma meant when she said watch your friends, huh? Guess I should have listened, but now it's too late Taking my last breath getting closer to my fate And right when I felt I was good with dying A voice in my head said, "Don't stop, keep trying" So I got my a** up, walked to school and dialed nine one one True story, f** what you think you could do for me Fifteen years old, just another victim Just another kid that would end up dead or in prison Got to the hospital, the doctor said they don't know if I'mma live Immediate surgery tube through my ribs I could barely breathe, I was bleeding out That's when I met God, yeah I can see him now With a collapsed lung and two stab wounds I'm losing blood quick, but I ain't going that soon Everybody left, but I had strength in myself "I'mma be aight", that's what I say to myself Yeah, and sure enough I kept on breathing Almost paralyzed for the next three weekends Private numbers calling, d**h threats to my family Even named my little sis, so how can you be mad at me When I told you that I fear for our safety Cause no street cred is worth my mothers place G They asked me who it was and I let em' know I ain't ashamed of my choice and I don't regret it yo Cause truth is, I don't follow no one's rules I do what I feel's right, I ain't no one's mule The whole thing was recorded and put up online But you should know, if you can't do the time, don't do the crime See I ain't no G, just a man with a pa**ion But I always took responsibility for my actions I never hurt a soul in my life, I'm a family man Always kept my word, so tell me how bad of a man I am Cause when it comes down to it, all you got is you And we all gotta survive, do what you gotta do Fifteen years old, left in the dust The world taught me never to love and never to trust Nah, but now I know my purpose, now I know what I'm here for Now I know what I've been waiting all these years for Fifteen years old, left in the dust The world taught me never to love and never to trust Nah, but now I know my purpose, now I know what I'm here for Now I know why I've been waiting all these years Yours truly