[Hook] September 5th again, I'm having trouble staying focused Sleep don't come too easy, swallow pills tryin' not to notice The harm I'm doin' to myself, tryin' to overlook I never got to say goodbye and that left me shook [Verse One] A bar and two blunts, I'm in love with that mixture Started doin' d** about the time that you went up Addiction left your body still like a picture I can't believe it's been 2 years, damn I miss ya When I got the news I cried, I won't lie Everyday I wish that you were still alive Accidental suicide, I had tears in my eyes When Lo called and said you died overnight I should've visited more, dedicated to a who*e Who didn't love me back, you knew all about that Sad to see your wife leave you Everyday was hard watchin' your life leave too 'Til the end of my days, I'll always regret I never said goodbye to the disabled vet Who inspired me more than my teachers or my preacher Every day that I watched you grow weaker [Hook] [Verse Two] You're up with God, I'm certain Here at home there's definitely been some hurtin' Lo took a flight, he headed back over Hit him hard that he couldn't get you sober Matt took a hit, lost his job Torn up that he couldn't play Santa Claus And after Jason took his bullet You dying Ray, that really got to him Watched a young GI cry, but only out his left eye Just lost his other half, love like that don't happen twice You and Jason probably up there tellin' us to relax And your probably yelling saying stop takin' 'Nax I've been low, been real high Hopin' I can get high enough to stop by One more day, one more conversations all I'm askin' Stay depressed cause I know that can't happen [Hook]