Eric Appapoulay - Darkest Place lyrics

[Hook] I'm in the darkest place I think I've ever been You can see from the scars on my face I'm not where I'm supposed to be All alone Why have you forsaken me? All alone You make it hard to believe [Verse 1] I'm in the darkest place And I don't just mean this jail In my mind there's a darkest space Trapped in an even darker cell You got to see it to believe it's true That's why it's so hard to believe in you Stay real, but you got to have faith But I wondered where you were when I needed you When that girl was telling lies in the court With her hand on the Bible, where was the lightning? The great vengeance, furious anger that Samuel L.J. made sound so frightening She attempted to poison a brother And I mean it in a Biblical sense, not a black way She succeeded to destroy that brother It's deep; you can make a fool battle out of laughing She just did it for the money for the cash, eh? I bet she's rolling in it now she's famous You must think that's fair considering I got to deal with man who want to feel a new an*s So you save up a months worth of f*gs And trade them for a shank along with your trainers And you take a man's life with your make-shift Knife cause this isn't you, messed up your Brain is [Hook] [Verse 2] Are you real or a myth? Is there a heaven or just an abyss? Sometimes I wonder if you even exist Cause if you do then you're taking the piss I don't deserve this why are you torturing me God? We both know something ain't right here It's been two whole months Since I k**ed that man and I'm still having nightmares It was just self-defence But try telling that to my conscience My head's in a real bad way But even when I tell you, you ignore me like its nonsense I was being attacked on a daily basis I had to do something And it weren't like you were going to intervene at any Point cause you never do nothing Just I thought you'd sent me an angel When the second man tried put the first cut in And got stabbed instead, but now I know That was just in my head, not the hole that I'm stuck in Cause if he really was an angel you sent He wouldn't be trapped in this jail with me Spread out his wings and fly Get out of this hell-hole quickly That's how I know you're a fake That's how I know you're a lie That's how I know you're a made-up fictional character that Lives in the sky Yeah it's all just a con It's all just a scam God ain't real It's just a sham I'm in the darkest place You can see from the scars on my face Ooh yeah I'm in the darkest place I think I've ever been You can see from the scars on my face I'm not where I'm supposed to be All alone Why have you forsaken me? All alone You make it hard to believe I'm in the darkest place I think I've ever been You can see from the scars on my face I'm not where I'm supposed to be All alone Why have you forsaken me? All alone