Erev - February lyrics

(Denial) [Verse 1: NYX] Hovering cold shoulder, wait to blow over Holding onto promises that stay in a smoldering Ash pile, hold on, no way, gone in a minute But back any day right? I stay night and day waiting by the window pane For a glimpse in the rain of your car or your face No luck, but no way you're gone with no trace No evidence to say otherwise, you're late But you're coming home; no proof I just know Waiting to wake up footprints in the snow Frosted window, face inscribed, sunlight as glows No hope, they say you're long gone Funeral tomorrow and I won't go Won't admit defeat, no show I'll go and find you to show I'm not crazy Visions getting hazy, memories fading (Anger) [Verse 2: Mr. Crow] f** that bullsh**, I was hit A bullet to my heart and you were the cause of it It's not my fault, you were the idiot Deciding to take the fall and take the risk sh** I left you, but I thought you knew better Supposed to protect you, think I didn't care? Well I don't, I'm just staring out alone in our home With pictures together that make me sick Kick in my pride wishing I was the one to have died Cuz I can't lie about what happened Our parents - I'm the one that has to hear them cry And I'm the one that sees all the saddened - Faces looking at me, flaring up Guilty as charged, is this fair enough? Can I bear enough before my head is crushed Or do I have to take and k** everyone I ever loved? [Pre-Hook: Joule] Waooooh oooooh oooooh oooooh ohhhhh x2 [Hook: Joule] I've given up so much, I've given so much of me Now all I feel, all I feel is the February breeze My heart is frozen over I've lost my composure You can't save me (Bargaining) [Verse 3: Erev] It's been a while, since I been alone Its 90 out, yet the cold wind blows Sent shivers down my spine Damn whats wrong with me, what happened with my mind? Remember when I used to stand tall and proud With a big smile, now all I wanna do is drown Me? I'm stuck with my own thoughts Started talking to you God Am I crazy? (Yes) I just need a way out I know I did wrong God damn, why'd I make it home? I was dumb I was young I was tryna have a little bit a fun Now I can't even sleep, can't even breath That night stenciled within me Lord please give him back or end the pain Before I pull the trigger and blow my brain (Depression) [Verse 4: Cryptic Wisdom] Have I gone insane? Is there anyone that knows my shame? Cause I feel so alone these days Stuck in a battle because I know I'm blamed Used to kick it with the foes I've made Now I never even show my face Friendship is below my place Hold the weight until my shoulders break And I fall to the floor, how could I be so stupid? Damn! I was there for a reason, to watch you both It's no joke that I blew this chance Didn't even end up with the girl that I dissed you for Now I move in a trance Consumed by the moon as it dances around your grave And I loosen the flask [Prehook] [Hook x2] (Acceptance) [Outro: Clark Bomba] Its okay, to let it go; I'll face a new tomorrow x3