Epidemic - Beautiful Goodbye (Epilogue) lyrics

[Verse: Epidemic] It's not for everybody, It'll never work Stop wasting your life my mother said it first One bedroom apartment it was four of us Sister on the couch, brother on the floor poor us Momma slaving for a few pancakes No cartoons, just me & my Wu-Tang tape See I related to the struggle from the outset So it shouldn't be a +shock+ Hip-Hop would be my +outlet+ But I ain't never been shot Over five times dawg so I could never be Pac I could never be BIG, I could never be Jay & I ain't Eminem I'll probably never meet Dre I'm just another college dropout Such a copout, trying to paint a picture but n***as just want me cropped out So tell me how should I survive, either hit I-95 Or get a 9 to 5 I quit this sh** for 4 years Trying to stack the +green+ around my team just like +Paul Pierce+ Except I swore I'd never +flop+ If I ever got the chance again I'd never stop See I'm just trying to make up for my regrets homie You call it studio time, I call it rent money You can't evict me from the booth so n***a get from me You can't convict me for the truth so get the sheriff on me This is where I testify, hand on the bible I would rather get electrified Than have to justify how I won't grind for all the n***as that put their futures on hold for mine This for the nights I couldn't sleep, girls I walked away from, promises I couldn't keep The hearts I couldn't unbreak, the karma, the defeat The heartache & the tears falling from my momma's cheeks For all the angels on my arms that cover scars under the ink Or the times I wrote a song & drowned my sorrows with a drink Now to think the realest sh** I wrote could be my last But it also might be the one that gets me pa**ed my past For now I'm walking towards the abyss With a smile, I never sold my soul to get rich At least now I got something to show to my kids Epidemic signing out 3rd exposure that's it In case this is it.. Thank You