Ephelant - My Shadow lyrics

[Verse 1: Ephelant] Home is where I left you No longer safe for refuge No I won't come back to rescue May spirit have truly blessed you Cause this life is gonna test you May West you with her best view Sometimes you'll call her a b**h But really she's just vexed you Oh the hexes and the nixes Crossed fingers, crucifixes Mola**es french kisses From the misses and the mistress I guess I'm superstitious Like Grandma, heard them whispers Haunted by the hisses Of the snakes in our abysses I'm just trying to find the fixes No pot left here to piss in George Foreman grill my kitchen But you don't want to listen You just want attention Blind fury Kamikaze Riches, paparazzi Selling pictures that are glossy Living like a zombie Empty heart Mohave Gone like Anasazi I disappeared so nonchalantly Yeah home is where I left you I swear it was to protect you No I never meant to reject you Now I can't help but to reflect you Cause I'd rather sell out than sell myself short [Hook] Self-destructive man feels completely alienated Utterly alone, he's an outsider to the human community [Verse 2: Time] This is my shadow, this is my shadow This is the mirror, inside is my battle My enemy is fear, I try to forgive I know I made mistakes like look what I did I know I disappear, I know I get depressed I know I said words that made you feel less I know I'm insecure, that's why I talk sh** I'm really just mad cause I never dropped a hit I know I'm an a**hole, I know I'm selfish I got a big ego, I really can't help it I know I get quiet, I know I act childish I know I shut down, my weapon is silence I know I'm a coward, I know I'm a liar I know I'm negative and always tired I know I judge others cause there's lack in myself I know I want money but I want true wealth I'm truly trying to diagnose the demons in me My patriarchy, prejudice, masculinity I used to get jumped, that's why I got rage So I take it out in the booth with ink on the page My shadow comes out, my medulla erupts I'm feeling so stuck, I'm throwing uppercuts yelling I don't give a f** That's that sh** that got me arrested Blade in the glove box nothing to mess with My shadow took a stomach full of pills, I made myself throw up Laying on the bathroom floor, man, grateful for life, that's how you grow up My shadow said you can't save the world until you save yourself, so I saved myself Real battles are fought on the inside, I signed that treaty, thanks for the help You saved my life, that's true wealth [Hook] Self-destructive man feels completely alienated Utterly alone, he's an outsider to the human community