Ensayne Wayne - 1983 lyrics

[Intro] I think we all have these moments in our life, where we say Or do things And we're so sorry for them, really It's not the way we would have wanted it to come out Umm, let's face it, this is real life And this is the thought that was captured from me That words only share a small portion of the vision that they give witness too [Verse 1] I had to write this in blood, because the ink wouldn't stick I sold five to six million but, yo, that ain't really sh** It was supposed to be different, we were supposed to ride out, But too much shot his girl, then shot himself in the mouth Then the steady game form but very soon fell apart, ‘cause when you just doing all, with no the loyalty in your heart, Slight catch a long hymn on all these n******gs forgetting where they're coming from And they're slowing down, wait a minute, what we're running from? This what we're supposed to do, here's where we're supposed to be, I hated MTV for trying to play me like a mockery But that don't bother me, I just fulfill my f**ing contract Small price to pay just to take a piece of my back My back, backfire, a**a**ination of my character Just to make some millions off of America My younger sister, Erika, just adopted a child, My older brother served fifteen, he made it out Even though my father loved me, I ain't seen him for a while Had to fight my baby momma, b**h, give me my n***a now ‘cause he's running out of time and I need him to understand The way a superior man had build a brand n***as talk about my taxes, had to pay to Uncle Sam I'm surviving ‘cause the lines a** crooked in the hand [Verse 2] Heartbreak, disappointment, my mother died when I was nine I just wanted to join her Now I miss to join her, you get to California, I got something for you to do, it was like I was anointed Resurrected, found my purpose I remember meeting Dre, being nervous when I would kick my verses I was virtually worthless, my whole life was a circus I was sleeping with serpents and I thought it is worth it Got a call from Paul, told me sh** isn't working Exchange words, told me tell me that sh** in person He probably told Em, and by the way did he said it unapologetic twisted made about him I see Slim and he said he didn't recognize me Was it that or did he let another man define me I don't know, but now I gotta get this all behind me Follow my calling when I used to follow n******gs blindly [Verse 3] I wish I had a better relationship with my uncles Blood relatives I could turn to when I'm feeling trouble And talk about my struggles My uncle John Nail, he only put me on the phone with different females And this is such a such, nephew, tell 'er, what's up? Ain't even ask about your man in Cali, growing up f**, I drink it all and I smash the bottle Self medicated numb, but I'mma feel it tomorrow It feel like pain and sorrow was like a second skin But now the pain is gone I got my second win Only the strong live long, you better settle in I'm fighting for ever, I will never let the devil win 1983, that's when my journey begins I searched every world for strength, only to find it within This for me and my kid, still dying to live Living life to the fullest 'till I see you again