Endwell - Depression Party lyrics

I, I can't begin to explain All the things that I lost because of playing this game All the flowers that failed to bloom The perpetual sorrow as reality comes into view I turned this flame into a spark My roar decays into a bark The smoke, the drinks, the friends, the scum I tried, I swear that I tried but I'm done, I'm done Always a way to make you think it's okay But then reality spits in your face From the bottom I can see how they make it seem But don't believe in all the bullsh** in your magazines Goodbye to days of grace Welcome my grave disgrace Another way just to capitalize on your dreams This is not the way you wanted it to be So much to say about the way it was They took it all from us So much to take, they took it all from us When it's all been said and done When it's all been said and done before They'll s** you dry until you've lost it all You don't mean a thing to them And they will never break your fall Everybody jockin' hard When you're top dog But when your chips are down Where the f** they all gone? Integrity don't mean sh** In this industry So lean on the few who true And always in ourselves believe Hate all you want it Only adds to our determination And all you doubting f**s Will see exactly what were made of When all is said and done You never stood a chance Against a world that didn't want your love When you tried to tell yourself That everything would work itself out But you don't have that luck Now that everyone is gone You've come to realize You function better alone And with a lack of love You've found a better Understanding of the way this works Amen to the things we loved And the dying youth within all of us So much to say the way it was So much to take, they took from us, you repent I'll take it from the top so you can understand I think it's the boy in me understanding becoming a man And let me say something no one held my hand Now anxiety ridden inside, sh** has hit the fan My heart races from wake to sleep Head slow, I barely got the stomach to eat Got nowhere to run and retreat Nerves got me on the edge of my seat What the f** happened to me? Hatred for myself Breeds hatred for everyone else