Endoe Nova - Before I Die lyrics

(Verse 1) How you feel, you treated him bad and now he k**ed A relationship was all that he ever tried to build Obviously he never crossed the thought that it's not for real As far as he was concerned in his heart you was his father still But it's a shame how you chose about going through long spurts Of leaving him alone even knowing it's gone hurt Never played ball with him or helped with his homework Not until you read that note written in his own words That you realized that you might have hit the wrong nerve A cloned version of your father that treated you wrong first But now you see the result, Both you and I know The outcome could have been better than a suicide note But naw, during times you often crucify hope That was your choice to go and be a foolish pop so He's gone and you can't stop the tears coming from your eyes Since you picked up that letter which read "Before I Die...." (Hook) (Suicide) I wanted you to take a look in my eyes (Suicide) Try finding all this pain that I hide (Suicide) Try to feel what I'm feeling inside (Suicide) Because now all I can say is I tried, Goodbye, (Suicide) (Verse 2) Sometimes it hurt me even seeing the young brother And how disobedient he can be to his own mother By the way he used to act, you would think he don't love her But he is young maybe he thinking she don't suffer He telling her he hate her, even cursing her out Selling d** on the corner, always sneaking out the house She let him know about the streets, didn't wait for him to fail But he ain't gone realize until they place him in a cell One night he came home tip toeing through the door In the kitchen, where he saw his mama laying on the floor Panic mode, called 911 to let them know Checked her pulse, told him something that he wasn't ready for Now he crying after he had realized what he done Didn't even get a chance to say goodbye to his mom And he can't stop the tears coming from his eyes Since he picked up that letter which read "Before I Die...." (Hook) 1x (Verse 3) You had the best girlfriend that you could ever have The only time she get to smile is when she thinking about the past Feeling like you put her last, she going through hard living When she try to talk to you all you do is start tripping To tell that she hurting you ain't got to be a psychic She fighting for your love and right now it is a riot You love her but don't show it, at least you can do is try it Even gave her a child and had the nerve to deny it Now he ready for commitment, them ways are falling back Rode to her house, now he wonder where her car was at Hit her up, she ain't answer, she ain't even calling back Wonder where his woman at, he finna have a heart attack Shocked by what he seen (seen) a couple days later (later) That she pa**ed away, saw her face in the paper And for weeks he couldn't stop the tears coming from his eyes Found a letter in her ride which read..., Found a letter in her ride which read "Before I Die...." (Hook) 1x