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[Spoken word] Looking down at my phone see another un read text. I never had these problems when I had my reflex. Scared to see my best friend now because I'm lost in the light. In the bathroom cutting my wrist while she called twice. Sorry but I'm petrified to look at something so royal when I'm a mess and her father knows it I wonder if he regrets saying yes. Trying to convince the homies that I'm out for that bags but really I'm using my success to get revenge on my dad. Cause people hating on me, how can I not reveal em? My girl waited on me damn how do I not owe her? Imagine having to make that decision while your best friend is in the kitchen tears dripping wondering where her mans heading? But I never meant to make you uncomfortable can I see your smile? Phones ringing, "aye yo I'm with my mom" anyways I wanna write you a sonnet but instead she said all I ever wanted was for you to not turn on me. It's been so long since you've gone away. [Spoken word 2] 2 years to be more specific, I was out Tryna cross the Bermuda you crossed the triangle. Isn't it a coincidence that we met in the same season and the feeling in this poem is feeling the same feeling. And while I'm writing my first word she calls me up crying? That sh** is crazy 2 years without explanation. Now you're asking if it's too late to get together, girl I don't know so I hang up without saying sh** just click red. Wasn't man enough to say it so I wrote with a pen. I just wanted to make you happy but you're always down. I just wanted that phone call that your life is clean. Anyways, maybe we'll be back to the same when we never had any problems and we can both live life without going away.