Emmure - A Gift A Curse lyrics

What I've done what I've seen The lives I've touched, what does it mean? Losing track of everything I gave it all but what did I gain And I don't care what waits for me On the other side of life's release Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see So even if I die I'll never rest in peace I was desperate just to shine Now I struggle constantly to survive I, I have nothing to prove to you What I've done what I've seen The lives I've touched, what does it mean? Losing track of everything I gave it all but what did I gain And I don't care what waits for me On the other side of life's release Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see So even if I die I'll never rest in peace And I tried so many times To show that what I feel is real No this is not a joke, but you keep pushing me Yeah you keep pushing me [?] All I know is lost, I'm alone in this Silently I watch hoping you'd come back to me All I know is lost, I'm alone in this Silently I watch hoping you'd come back to me Seems like I'll be [?] til the end Knowing that I kept Spitting in my [?] I don't need your empty words or bullsh** sympathy So here's a gift for all those years of mocking me Now I will shove this evil upon you You deserve to feel what I'm going through Now I will shove this evil upon you You deserve to feel what I'm going through