Emily Lazar - This Is f**ing Ecstasy lyrics

I'm sinking yet I'll stride A satchel filled with files The secrets of the tribe The cameras follow me for miles Born a slave in 1984 I discovered that my life is just a record they performed A maze where I was placed Tell me what you think of this one Tell me what you think of this one 'Cause now I've sold you out Now that there's no doubt Now I've called you out Now I've sold you out They strapped me to the roof And cut right through me Diggin' through my wounds I watched them helplessly and shook Where are my pills, where is my former lover? I've been betrayed by everyone I know who's blown my feeble cover So tell me what you think of this one Tell me what you think of this gun Now I've sold you out Now that there's no doubt Now I've called you out Now I've sold you out 'Cause the truth is this: I finally know what they conceived so long ago A baby rat for them to test The poison's on a rubber breast For me to learn; dependence on the shackles here But now they're gone This place I live in hyper speed I shall not live; I shall not breathe again This is f**in' ecstasy This is f**in' leprosy It's like they're f**in' testin' me I'm in f**in' ecstasy