Bits of conversation Fill my head Tangling with words We haven't said Glimpses of a movement you once made Knowing I could live But dream instead Wondering if you saw the part I played Whether I'm the reason That you stayed Only half believing it could be Well aware I want What I forbade Questioning my own reality Doubting in my mind The things I see Altering perception fast as light Do you know for years you've haunted me? Speaking words you never could recite Giving bliss as if to test my flight All is but illusion This I know Yet more felt than objects in my sight The world may see my skin But just below Simmers what I think But never show Lifetimes lived with you but more than this Guessing where in your sweet dreams you go Do you drown in memory's abyss? Is there music In a voice you miss? When you close your eyes do you relive Each averted glance Aborted kiss? Do you harbor what you should forgive? Search for signs In every narrative? Or repel all company save one Who is not cure but palliative? While it's possible these things you've done All too likely I'm the only one And upon this thought My vision fled So I end back where I had begun Nothing but the present Fills your head Forgetting more than half the things I've said Shadows Of a sacrifice you made Knowing you could dream But live instead