Elvis Costello - The First To Leave lyrics

I should open with a kiss For if you're reading this You must have opened up your case And found this letter where i placed it In between the silk and lace There were other clues, like your walking shoes But i still refused to believe That you were meant to be the first to leave Everybody here sends you their love How can i forget you still walk above Or Below Perhaps you'll never know this purgatory We never could agree There's a thought, there's a pause No time to repent Eternally yours In a permanent lent But if i should give you up If you're right and life just stops And i never see your face again Then from unearthly pleasures, proud and plain I shall abstain Until you realise, my loss is your surprise Unless you know otherwise Then don't grieve You see i had to be the first to leave