Elvis Costello - Hidden Shame lyrics

I'm sorry to say that you don't know me I'm sad in ways you never understood Each time i try to tell the ugly truth You always let it pa** you by You said i 'd never tell you a lie Just because i could Did you really think i was a bad man? You always said that that should be my middle name But you don't know the half of it You don't know how that name fits You don't know my hidden shame Hidden shame, shame, shame That i can't get free From the blame and the torture And the misery Must it be my secret for eternity? Till you know my hidden shame you really don't know me Well, there's a different kind of prison And it don't even have to look much like a cell It's already on your mind Boy, we can see it in your eyes So, here's the bars and walls as well Well, you know i'm never coming home, babe You said you'd stand by me until i cleared my name Sure it's easy to be strong When you know the charge is wrong But the days and weeks get long When you've got a hidden shame Chorus I had a friend when i was just a boy We were like brothers, we would run and hide And we went walking on a high hillside And i really don't how it happened He turned to me and had this strange look in his eye And not a single word was spoken I must have pushed him, but i don't remember why And all at once, he lay there broken And i walked down without him and i didn't even sigh Chorus They say you always hurt the one you love And i'm not saying if i did or if i didn't But like my shame, that kind of love is always hidden They locked me up here for the ideas in my head They never got me for the thing i really did Chorus