Elusive - Thank You lyrics

[Verse 1: Elusive] It's the little things, that leave a scar Broken dreams, no memories of me and uh I ain't even know her name now - we're strangers But I guess the changes, make us who we are It's her I miss though, so no disagreeing But by now, I just can't tell who I'm seeing All I see is light, I'm sick of fleeing, so I'll fight Cause the only thing I wanna be, is a human being When it's just you and me and, I ain't gotta rhyme I'mma tell you what I'm gonna find Till I see a line, in the sands of time This chance is mine, I wouldn't miss it, even if I was colour blind But I'm not, so I see With perfect vision, and without a memory Don't you get it? This is me, so you've gotta know it's true Cause the only thing I've ever shown to you, was honesty But you won't agree, it must be another Future dispute, like why'd I even bother? I guess the only one I hate is myself though Cause even now I know I still love her.. And I'm feeling like a dove Cause the only place I'm flying is above I mean I'm all in, now I have stopped stalling We'd fallen out, but this time, I am in love And I know it must be real Cause you were patient enough, to help heal All the wounds, of everything I'd been through So now I can begin new, and tell you, how I feel Like it's what I know you wanna hear But me? I only want her here With my eyes closed, I can see her, you ain't got no idea What it's like, when you know, what you want is just gonna disappear Soon as you start to get close Feels like I'm haunted by a ghost But the scariest thing about this is You will always be the one I wanted most.. Like each day is just another date And I'm just counting down the seconds, cause they correlate But I don't wanna wait, until I see your face For me to tell you, that I'm not the only one I hate Cause now the love is not the same Didn't know what you became, I couldn't even say your name Kept it hidden like your shame, and now there's not a flame There's a fire - so why are you still tryna play this game? It's insane, cause I ain't jealous, I am the opposite But you just keep this routine up, so what if there was Someone else that's bothered by all of it? Cause I ain't falling for it, but I'll bet you somebody has had enough of it So you can keep playing, though I won't play along I can't write what's right, when you just made it wrong And I ain't as strong, as I was Cause now the only thing I'm glad of, is that you're gone.. .. That's another lie Like I'll be still here waiting for you to come back to me until I f**ing die Until I'm gone, I'mma wander alone in the darkness Tryna find the light so I don't wonder why You and I are enemies But if I keep on chasing, I know I'm just erasing the memories So this is me, setting free, I'm letting go of everything And you ain't seen me sweating till this energy Has been released, to you I'm speaking This is who I've become, I ain't peaking - the only thing that I'm seeking is relief My heart skips a beat, promises I used to keep I'm sick of this abuse, cause if I ain't losing you, I'm losing sleep But without you I'm weak, you give me power So I think about you, every single hour, of the week Even though it's like we never speak - I see your face But it hurts cause I know I can't replace what's unique.. I wanna be there when you're down I want to be the person that you think of when there ain't nobody else around But I'm just feeling like a clown I'mma martyr, and after the laughter I'll never hear another sound.. Yet still I'm blessed with the imagery The memories of everything that you ever said to me Like I don't need to put it in a simile, it's been a long adventure But I knew you'd come back for me eventually To hear me play for you this symphony But I don't wanna risk winning, even if if it means I'm showing sympathy Cause God's got it in for me, and I live in infamy So I'm just thankful for everything that you did for me..