Elusive - Farewell lyrics

[Intro: Elusive] Yeah.. Usually, my music is about me.. And the way I see things.. But for this next song.. I'm gonna be telling your story.. From your point of view.. Let's see how close I am.. Uh.. [Verse 1: Elusive] If I was full of love, would you love me? All I wanted was, someone to hug me I couldn't see the beauty, looking in the mirror All I hear is all the other kids telling me I'm dumb and ugly I'm not worthy, cause every time I ever fell for someone else It seems like it was just to hurt me I got what I deserved, and I can only blame myself for Putting trust in people, when they all desert me But my life might be a short ride So I've gotta be strong, and let the doubt hide Life's an outfit, that I ain't fitting in Cause the only time, I belong is when I'm on the outside And now I wake up to a bad dream See, when I found myself - I lost my self-esteem I'm depressed, but I guess you must be deaf You don't even seem to hear a single thing, when I try and scream.. [Hook: Faith Williams] I wanted to love you.. But you wouldn't love me, for me.. All that leaves.. Is to say farewell.. I didn't want to say goodbye to you.. But you didn't give me a chance, to be true.. To myself.. All that's left, is farewell.. [Verse 2: Elusive] Afraid of love, but I seek connection Looking at myself, I see an imperfection What if it's misdirection? I got nowhere left to go So I pushed away the people tryna show affection The wrong one's I put trust in Life pa**es by, but I guess I'm still adjusting At the start I couldn't deal, I was crushed But if my heart is made of steel, why do I feel like it's rusting If I'm worthless, why should I be proud? Screaming loud, cause I can only do what I'm allowed I never had a handout, so I hold my hand out Hoping it might help me stand out, from the crowd Cause people treat me like I'm made of gla** About to break, and you don't see me when I'm walking past Just let my voice be heard, is that too much to ask? I didn't want the drama, so here I hide behind a mask.. [Hook] [Bridge: Elusive / Faith Williams] All I really wanted, was someone I could hold.. So I don't feel alone, when night falls and it's cold.. Look into my soul, and tell me what you see.. I tried to open up, but I am only me.. [Verse 3: Elusive] In my mind, it's like a whirlwind I'd been hurt so many times, I could near end My life, but then I met a rapper who would open my eyes And it was nice, but of course, he just lost a girlfriend Together, it was only comfort we found If you ever needed me, I would always be round But I had it all backwards, cause the truth is To you, I felt more like, I was just another rebound And still you never wanted s** I guess at least I had that in common, with your ex Then I saw my life cave in, and though I needed saving I don't need your superhero complex Reading back messages you once sent And still now, I am not sure, what it all meant Like how could I rely on somebody Who just keeps threatening to leave me at any moment.. [Hook] [Outro: Elusive] Yeah.. So I guess that's it.. You know I never meant to hurt you though.. I just wanted you to know, that I understand.. Cause to me, you really are amazing.. And I just felt, your side of the story had to be told.. Before I'm gone..