Elliot Matsu - It Tears Me Up lyrics

Out here on my own, I ain't seen a smile for weeks And I'm just looking for some comfort on these New York City streets And I wish that I could hold you when everything goes wrong But life just brings us slowly what we figured all along - to be true So I flew back to Chicago with tear drops in my eyes I stood on your old driveway and looked up at the sky I did it for your Daddy and he did it for me But the waves were just too powerful and I lost you out at sea It tears me up, it tears me up that you're not around It tears me up, it tears me up to see you movin' on So I'm running away... I'm running away The Hilton in Los Angeles, I smoke a cigarette And I just can't stop wishing you were lying in this bed I'm running out of places, I'm running out of time I'm all out of excuses and there's nowhere left to hide (CHORUS) Clock keeps ticking and the days go by Seems so pointless that I want to cry Cities away, day after day, I do what I do in a detached way The light shines in, the lights go out, Sometimes I forget why I left the house So many things I don't want to face, Pain in waves So I'm running away.... I'm running away A pawn shop out in Tucson, I bought a gun for cash And I drove out in the desert 'til the car ran out of gas Saw an old man in a lawnchair, puffing on a pipe He said "Son, you look confused" and I told him he was right (CHORUS) Got myself a shovel, dug myself a grave I thought about my mama and the pictures she had saved Life can get confusing in this lonely desert heat The sky is getting darker and I want to go to sleep