Elhae - HER lyrics

[Intro] Alice: I don't love you anymore Dan: Since when? Alice: Now, just now I don't wanna lie and can't tell the truth so its over Dan: It doesn't matter, I love you, none of it matters Alice: I don't love you anymore [Verse 1: Elhae] 4 AM in the morning, contemplating on life Maybe falling back from recording Took me almost a week to even think about writing Forcing myself to eat, sometimes I think about dying Maybe the worst thing I had ever felt Every tear on my momma's shoulder was a cry for help And you wasn't there How you think I was supposed to feel? I never thought you'd make me feel the way you made me feel Let's keep it real, my stomach in knots, depression creeping Middle finger to this lesson my life is trying to teach me Remember when you looked me in my face and said "Don't leave me." I kept my promise, now I'm left with nothing but these reasons To hate you, I hate you, that's what I want to tell her Just let me say it, I say it to feel a little better How could you do this? Huh? Claiming people change? Firing shots at my heart with some lethal range It's not fair, I gave you the world and then some more Now every night I ask myself what I'm in it for What am I meant for? What was she even sent for? Every single call on my phone I just hit ignore Feeling like I'm 'bout to implode, that wouldn't seem so bad I hate to be that n***a where everything seem so sad I know it could be worse, this is my life You were my everything, you were supposed to be my wife But forget it I'm blowing this tree into the sky Every minute 'bout to cry and you know the reason why You the one that's on my mind, it s**s I don't want you here Because you made it clear Yeah, you made it clear Sipping liquor with my n***as, getting twisted out my mind Sleeping every hour of the day, I never know the time Blowing smoke up in the car just to get away from life Reading scriptures on my phone, getting close to Jesus Christ This ain't how I'm supposed to feel, I ain't never signed for this God, I'm such a nice guy, you know I was blind to this You couldn't warn me? Let me know she wouldn't love me back Before I gave her everything and walked into this heart attack Like I don't understand, people tell me this is your plan Why couldn't she be in it? I feel like she made me a better man Someone I was proud to look back at in the mirror Now I don't even know that person, I can't even hear 'em Its just hard, I ain't trying to sound like I can't live without her But I just can't stand thinking 'bout her Every single hour Every single minute Every single second of the day I just wanna go to sleep and when i sleep, I see her face And I wake up in the same spot she used to sleep in A nightmare would probably be a better place to be at I'm just so sick, I've never been the suicidal type But god help me as I lay my head on this pillow tonight I need help, maybe time, maybe prayer Whatever it is, I need it cause this burdens hard to bare And if you ever listen to this baby, don't be scared It's just life, something that you'll probably never be prepared for Don't cry, cause I know how you are I wish you well, I just wish you wasn't so far As usual, I end up with the loss Hear a knock on the door, make it quick, cut me off [Outro x2: Elhae] And I've been here before, I've been here before And I made it out, I made it out, yeah