Elemental Zazen - Wanted To Be lyrics

Verse 1: I feel the weight of my mistakes lying awake Dying to escape the fear that flying creates It's too late for crying or denying your fate Buying the stock in a quick fix and trying to make due Take the sick dreams and parents that hate you Scared to disappoint with no one to relate to Prepared to flip a coin, see wherever it takes you They just berate you nothing better awaits you Spread the apathy disease to our seeds Till we believes needs can never be appeased Till the fire burns a million and whatever degrees Until your consumed by chance and can't remember to breathe Believe it's all the same, shadows and rain Hang me from the gallows and drain my blood through the shallowest vein Shackle my frame tack my ankles and my back till it snaps Till they clap and only silence remains with the shame Staring at flames, entranced by the dance contained The stormy weather is a measure that can never be changed Chorus (Toussaint): Wanted to be a doctor, an architect, maybe a lawyer Now Look at me, I'm a survivalist, an everyday struggler Time standing still, when you feel, you wanna keep me from drowning Wanted to be me, I wanted to be Can you relate to the feeling Apathetic revealing Your mindstate deflated till the pain is the ceiling Your mindstate deflated till your drained and your reeling Hoping to catch yourself cause the mundane ain't appealing Revealing ways to accept the gaze of the grey sky That saves what it sets ablaze A catch phrase of cliches, neglect in spades Everyone stays in the maze till their debts are paid The razor blades take aim Parades of blame It's strange, a damn shame what the sadness claims Average and plain what the madness tamed A Place with no trace A face with no name So feign interest in these words of distress Do anything you can to impress your princess Stress what you obsess oven till the gin sets in Time to confess that your scared of success Keep my head up high, do my best to pa** this test Feel her kiss and begin to feel alive in this mess Chorus (Toussaint): Wanted to be a doctor, an architect, maybe a lawyer Now Look at me, I'm a survivalist, an everyday struggler Time standing still, when you feel, you wanna keep me from drowning Now I can see it's not the way that I planned, but still something beautiful Wanted to be an athlete, a movie star, maybe a writer Now look at me, sometimes it's so hard to look in the mirror Staring at the sky, try to understand what I'm here for Wanted to be me, I wanted to be