Element ( Of New World) - Ease lyrics

Verse 1: Element I'll never have enough I'm not backing up I just can't adjust if I ain't having d** My whole stamina is f**ing damaged cuz I've been slamming cups of this Fanta brushed With a little bit of syrup in the can I chugged No pop had to drink it flat and I buzzed Afterwards I feel above my state like Canada I didn't see why I should stop I threw my hands straight up Take a sip when I (went to school) Take a sip when I (felt so blue) Take a sip when I hated sh** and I Hated living life endless duels With my own mind There was countless times when I hoped I Was gonna take too much and end my own life I won't lie I used to get high because heaven was up And I would go there with no measuring cup Sip sip sipping that medicine up Sip sip sip till my head would get stuck In the mindset that I need it to achieve sh** I would be hit with depression if I leave it In the drawer it was keyless so I reached in Had all this pain I didn't know how to ease it Guess I wanted to be this teen kid with no demons just a dream and a Stephen King book I was reading Couldn't finish the page cuz the bottle of greenness was gleaming it would seep into my dreams when I'm sleeping Couldn't find a center had no faith in Jesus; but I called him every night in my bed with the fright in my head I think I'm about to see him Chorus: What do you need to take? Just to ease the pain? How do you k** yourself? So you don't live in hell? (x2) (Qday verse) (Chorus) I'm not sure any more about How much more I can take I'm drowning and nobody can save me From this prison in my mind that has caged me Waking up but I'm still asleep (still asleep, still asleep) Resiliency doesn't exist for me if that bottle right there is still in reach My abilities are continually just slipping free from my grip it seems I'm a different being so I finished these letters for all of you to sit and read So then it dawns on me this ain't the motherf**er I wanna be I wanna meet the next dawn to see I want it so you know that I'm gonna plead so honestly I wanna write the next song for me I wanna right the next wrong I see I wanna live, I just wanna live but I couldn't do it all with my autonomy Won't you please awake? I'm here to ease the pain I don't want to see you KILL YOURSELF I am only HERE TO HELP anyway I you find your way This song is dedicated to anyone who has contemplated suicide or struggled with an addiction in their lifetime. I just want to let you know I'm here for you. I know what it's like. I know things can get hard, but you can't give up yet. Life will get better even if you think it won't. You have to keep hope. Believe in yourself. Your moment will come