Eldar-Q - I'm Not lyrics

Mike Bell [Verse 1] Been going through something its taking forever The weight and the pressure been pressing my flesh As I press through the test and confess that at best I'm a gigantic mess up I'm surrounded by people but still feel alone and surrounded by evil I'm down to my knees on the ground as I drown in an ocean of grief That's as High as A steeple And don't none of them get it Show empathy but they don't understand really My patience is low and I'm feeling so empty And crying to God for His Spirit to fill me Its enough to just wanna give up And be stuck in this rut, or just get me cup And get drunk as a skunk but thats done as a front And won't even hold up for a month So I trust that His love is enough and His grace is sufficient Replace what I'm missing invading my space with His wisdom Embracing me chasing away what I'm fearing Its time and I'm tired of crying Time I'm aligning my mind with that lion from judah That lion from zion, harder than iron Its time to rise up and declare Im not dying Mike Bell [Chorus 1] Man I almost gave it up Thought I was going through it too hard Asked whats the reason for my life Now I realize its for the Lord So I know I'm gone be what He called me to be I'm not losing no sleep Ain't no sickness disease ever hindering me Man I'm young and I'm free And can't nobody tell me I'm not Can't nobody tell me I'm not, Can't nobody tell me I'm not Can't nobody tell me can't nobody tell me I'm not Can't nobody tell me I'm not. (2x) I'm gone be what He want me to be (Can't nobody tell me I'm not.) I'm gone go where He wants me to go I'm gone live how He wants me to live (Can't nobody tell me I'm not.) Ain't nobody stopping me no Mike Bell [Bridge] Oooh, oohh Nobody, nobody Nobody can tell me I'm not Mike Bell [Verse 2] But lately I've been thinking about Another way to make it out Or maybe ill just wait it out I prayed about it but theres major doubt If I be honest I'm afraid I'm not ok At any moment Ill be breaking down Don't want you to see me like this I withdraw to the cave that I made That'll shade me from rain and the skies that are gray Till the pain and the darkness are faded away It feels crazy to say Cus I know y'all don't know my dismay Or the reason I'm grieving this evening but hey I'm just gone keep it 100 and pray that the clouds over head go away Tired of being the victim And giving my symptoms the victory over my senses Distorting my vision, then making me want to recant my decision Demonic in nature, and I know that I should be trusting the savior But I don't know how to conduct my behavior The sound of revival resounding around me despite Because God is so faithful and just And He loves me so much Even here at my lowest when I am not focused And frequently blow it I know this But struggle to show that I know it Its bogus I know it Mike Bell [Chorus 2] Man I almost gave it up Thought I was going through it too hard Asked whats the reason for my life Now I realize its for the Lord So I know I'm gone be what He called me to be I'm not losing no sleep Ain't no sickness disease ever hindering me Man I'm young and Im free And can't nobody tell me I'm not Can't nobody tell me I'm not, Can't nobody tell me I'm not Can't nobody tell me can't nobody tell me I'm not Can't nobody tell me I'm not. (2x) I'm gone be what He want me to be (Can't nobody tell me I'm not.) I'm gone go where He wants me to go I'm gone live how He wants me to live (Can't nobody tell me I'm not.) Ain't nobody stopping me no