El-P - Post Mortem lyrics

[Vast Aire] Vision is blurred yo [Mr. Lif] This is the last chapter Bombs hit who? Crushed what? Over there? Oh my god, oh dear I was hmm.. I think I was *h* movin somewhere About to pay my fare, bright glare, not quite clear Stay blinded to the light of possibilities Think I heard the screams of those in my proximity On how they started thinking wishfully Guided by fear I'm semi-aware Please, is anybody out there? [El-P] It was a gentle fission kiss on my block And hot light like a baby breathing, siren terrain And now my name is merely left Last second my brain exists before the final flash The emotion of pretty details of a life I had pa**ed Now my warm night in Brooklyn is ash Falling from the snot of loosies that I choked Around the corner from cla** Before the moments when the moon can move fast Another summer slowly growing with the friendships That would end with a blast Or how the hours could so blissfully lag She slid her tongue between my lips and I gasped Told my dawgs and they laughed Now we're combining our cash at last A pack of smokes and a flask Hold this liquor with a gas (?) mask [Jean Grae] Convert to atheism denounce god pronounce religion dead Faith in nothing trace my wrists with razors I refuse to wait for the blaze to erase my spirit d**h - faced with it - run to it - not from it Swallow all the pills in the medicine cabinet Chase it with a bottle of 151, hug mommy Head outside, smash windows in, trash my hotel lobby Break the grip off the time at last Find a kid to hem up, Wish I did more sinning Get a strap on run up in some women Lay in the middle of a highway wait for pain to hit me Steal a camera with people looting, screaming "come and get me" Find the nearest pawn shop, biggest gun, crowded street Blow my brains to hell - I'm gone - and let the devil come for me [Akrobatik] What's the chance that I'd be one of the last ones left of my preceders The Earth Crusher came before I could even conceive a fetus But I did go from nothing to misunderstood elitist Who tried to tell his people the lies instead of acting like defeatists But what good is that? Cause we're now all goin to hell Like some kid playin in his cla** out talkin before the bell I died believing in righteousness but I could have indulged more Cause giving in to temptation don't seem that raw no more I heard some airline offered flights into space I shoulda took it to see earth before they mashed up the place I thought I'd be alone when they finally came to get me But nobody gotta miss me because they all comin with me [Mr. Lif] Our horizon was accessorizing we bred more need Best believe this be the equation of greed I need a new car and thus new brakes Another tune-up with lube Whatever's put together shall be unscrewed In times of famine we made more food Food made more people It's all explained within the cycle of evil Would I trade it all? Cruisin down the highway on a bright summer day Gazing out a plane to see the earth from miles away Watchin the Patriots win the Super Bowl Grabbin that fumble from Ricky Proehl Or my stereo provided me with rhythm and soul I don't know, all I know is I feel guilt for Every single thing I've ever bought and sold I shoulda been at more demonstrations Planted bombs in corporations Murdered CEO's and cancelled TV shows Burned billboards and torn posters I coulda read more Finally I get to meet this god they left us dead for And its ill, its power to the form of a bill To which people k**ed by manipulated free will Conscience be the crucifix a chopping block for poppyco*k And I can feel our spirits drop upon these streets I oddly walk Enough talk! Here's my last chance to cherish a thought My flesh is fully melted and my stomach's in a knot So to my love I hated to leave you alone Parted my zone pa**ion took me to places and my life was a poem Baby I was on my way home about to catch a flight Our meeting has dissolved in radiation and light Love you gave me made me shine You're gorgeous with a powerful mind You lifted my spirits and strengthened my spine I'm at peace with my life cause knowin you was divine You made me see eternal beauty in a world that was dying Now we're all ground by the grind Out of luck and out of line, out of signs And now we're out of time...