El-P - Eating Its Way Out Of Me lyrics

[Verse 1] Feels like I'm walking the same road, you changed clothes And cleaned yourself with each time you're near, my head explodes What lit the way was the light in my head Now my batteries are dying, I'm almost dead I try to take in what friends say but nothing helps Why's this monster trying to turn me into something else? I sit around and wait, I guess we'll find out As beautiful as this hole is, I need to climb out [Hook] Cause you know that you mean so much to me Even though you don't give a f** about me And I saw it coming but I did nothing Cause you know I don't give a f** about me [Verse 2] I'd like to switch but I can't change like I rearranged The furniture in my head now I'm just sitting strange Everything is so distant, including the pain I'd like to make it all go away but it's too ingrained I'm trying to stay afloat, picture a different end But I can't see the shoreline or which way to swim Reopen the scab in my head that never healed right I can say I'm happy, just don't know what it feels like [Hook] [Verse 3] I'd like to say I can deal, will I escape duress? When I can't explain the scars on my arms and chest See the abyss, I pucker up and give her a kiss She holds me close and puts cigarettes out on my wrists I'm just a bum-out who's run out of lies truthfully I guess there's nothing that you or I could do for me I got a list of prescriptions I should stay off I guess my overdose either did the trick or was way off [Hook x 2]