ED - First Crush (Prod. By Blunted Beatz) lyrics

Ahhh my first crush Yup Kind of weird It started by awkward hellos and hi's That's when we were in 9th Since then time has really went by We had that spark but then you decided to turn it off We shared opinions and thoughts about everything Like our first time experimenting with d** You said you tried weed once but didn't like it Years later I'm asking you if I should You said don't try it I was at your aid when you and your boyfriend were fighting He left you crying Calling me for the first time over the phone Hearing your sniffles then making you giggle Telling you you were Beautiful I couldn't see but I knew I made you smile But then you got back with him And I had to stand there with an artificial grin You were carefree as can be because you used me But came crawling back whenever you needed sympathy Why didn't you want me? Now you're doin superb Tied severs with your family, working, and soon moving to New Jersey Looking for the smallest sign of hope Then one day your name pops up on my phone It says hi We went back and fourth until you didn't reply The next day I sent a message saying hey! what are you doing? You said just got home,I'm tired and hurt Waiting for my boyfriend to get off work Those words on the text made me fathom That I was zilch We had a drought of not conversing Now you substituted me for another boyfriend? Hope you hear this song and it knocks some sense into your head I was there for you when you had issues with your parents, your exs, even when your grandmother was on her d**h bed This game has been going on long enough Maybe god didn't want us to be togetha Then how come he put you in my life? Did he want me to know what missing out on the love of your life was like? You were a piece of gold in the titanic Now everything is at the ocean floor cuz of an ice berg You ignored my every attempt of expanding our relationship You never wanted me for me I was your therapist who gave you advice and compliments We had nothing in common but I knew we could overcome that problem I loved your hair that went down to your waist Your hazel eyes with your flawless face Why did I aim when my iron sights were crooked and you shrouded the gaping hints? Cuz I thought I had a chance Maybe I did love the behind of your pants But that doesn't mean nothing When we chatted I felt something From all the years we've known each other you've never said or wrote out my name Was it cuz you were afraid of the acknowledgement? I told you I had your back whenever you needed it You told me you had scoliosis Not many know this I can't help but yammer how i feel about you I'm not encompa**ing the times when your brothers said they would thrash me and told me to stop speaking I forgive you for those moments when you forgot about me and when I spotted your nudes I did all I could I hold no regrets Said everything except this I loved handling your concerns Or if you wanted to bloviate about silly topics I didn't care if there were pictures of you topless I wanted to be with you Get to know you personally Share stories and be best-friends Hang out once and see where it lead us But you Didn't give me that opportunity I've been crushed by a crush Maybe the farther we depart The better it'll be Why didn't you want me? I still the remember the first time we met How bout you?