They say believe what you see, but all I see are maladies My life seems to be a fallacy Falling apart on a balance beam I feel removed from my own reality And lately my fate seems tainted by faint dreams And days seem to make me bleed crazy Insanity causing a calamity inside my own family They didn't want when handed me So they banished me in damaged means Love famished but I stand to live in high abandonment I'm branded a commanding soldier about to bolster And unfold the old clover and give everyone the cold shoulder I told you but you forgot to listen And now you're listed and even being christened Couldn't protect you from these convictions Listening to my interdiction's could have saved you From being a victim's b**h and being shifted In a place that everyone will live in d**h gets us all, the best will always fall I'm fading and bleeding Laying and breathing Slaying my demons While I'm praying for meaning Hoping and needing Focused on reaping But it turns out that for the past 3 years I've been hopelessly dreaming Stoically steaming, anger is seeping The lit Liquid is blowing me ballistic and it's not worth f**ing fighting How could you defend against something as deadly as Liquid Nitrogen