Dwayne Applewhite - My Life, My Thoughts lyrics

Lately I’ve been in a stress mood I’m still in school but I don’t wanna be here f** a college degree but in my mind I feel it’s the only way to prosperity Mom and pops keep sparing me Giving me knowledge preparing me as I enter in the league I’m on my knees praying the Lord Provide my every need and what I need I guess I’ll leave it up to him Cuz I keep on following evil it’s bringing back to him I’m closer to suicide and I’m slaved to the flashy gems Brought back to reality when I’m rocking them ashy timbs Them cla**y women keep laughin’ cuz I can’t afford denim Then I’m forced to take over the microphone And write songs that only I can sing along too Swear to god it won’t be long before I’m riding in coupe Poppin’ bottles and f**ing models Become an idol that people follow because that’s something cool to do It’s just the truth and I know that it seems recycled But life is a f**in’ rifle The government watching moves When I move I start a whole movement of people before the lose it Of course I’m just on a mission ambition Bigger than Biggie ambiguous type of living It’s my life and my thoughts It’s my life and my thoughts So f*ck you (you, you, you) And you (you, you) and you (you, you) It’s my life, check it out! And my thoughts, yo, yo, yo! Lately, I’ve been in a blessed mood I’m out of school and really glad to be here Gotta college degree cause in my mind I know it’s the only way to security Without being security But curiously I’m entertaining this music industry While on my knees thanking them n***as for looking over me Back in the day When people used to laugh in my face Now I’m living it to the limit while I’m laughing to chase Fresh outta college (outta college) Still remember the day Packing in that Honda Civic on the way to the yay With a hope and a dream A book of poems and means To stop dreaming and do it Get out that Buick and beam Cause I’m expecting a seed Girl two months pregnant But we’ve been fussing and fighting so now she calling and texting Saying she had an abortion Said it wasn’t an option Couldn’t live her life putting her baby up for adoption But truthfully Her baby could have been me Turned misfortune into fortune Now unfortunately I’m sorry momma that my commas keep you calling to me Your missed abortion turned to orphan that you often see In every dream like a feam always thinking of me I remain as the person you desire to see I remain in this environment inspired to be Always growing cause I’m focused on what’s higher than me It’s my life, it’s my thoughts!