Drumma Boy - How I Feel lyrics

[Intro] Yeah, it's how I feel, right It's only me right, ha, it's life, ha [Verse 1] I was 15, a Virginia n***a with ambition Young but I envisioned f**ing them bad b**hes Live my life with no regrets, I try to show respect but you don't give it I guess you don't understand winning It might take me a lifetime to take it back And it might take you a lifetime to know the facts Yeah, just cause we different don't mean we distant And if you k** a man ain't no way to bring him back Yeah, they say it's mind over matter But what we living for, what really matters? Some n***as silver spoon just on a platter And other n***as is doomed just for disaster All alone sleeping in my bedroom As I wet the sheets, momma gon' be dead soon Cause a man beat her, but he don't realise She important to this family like a f**ing heirloom Yeah, a n***a still found his way out A record deal came, that n***a played out My momma living good, she taking days out And saying boy all that hard work paid out 500 racks for an hour show But ain't gon' ever do no 60 minute interview Cause all you wanna do is twist my words up And all I wanna do is flip my birds up Kinda tipsy off that red rum, murder I'm a singing a** n***a know you heard of me Every day my clique stunting n***as talking down But I'mma make them pick they words up I done said all I had to say, what else? co*k s**ers low blowing under my belt Yeah they hanging from the tip They tryna get a sip, don't let them get a grip I'm pissing on them myself 19 a n***a went through a tragedy 3 years a n***a just found a better me Yeah you might find another lover But you always started with Breezy like the letter "B" Nightmares feeling haunted Thinking do I really like this star sh**? Huh, because fame ain't freedom And this diamond chain only mean they hold you hostage Now I got a lot of offers Telling me to wear their clothes and they wanna be my sponsor But when a n***a fall off again they be like "off him" And then they gonna smile up in your face just like "awesome" Great, wait, police and a thug cannot relate I guess that's why this war on d** is the debate So I'mma keep on living my life from day to day Learn from my mistakes