DropxLife - Paradise lyrics

(Verse 1) Been working hard my whole life, just to get my own life Ain't there yet, they telling me I got it, I don't think twice But I, I told them not to worry bout me I said "I'm better off dead", and now they worried bout me Skeletons talking in my sleep and giving me advice On how to stay alive, I'm wide awake... but my eyes shut And when she left I got this feeling down in my gut That she never coming back and she don't give a flying f** About me or anybody that she see, we all the same inside Hoping that we live before we die Just an excuse, I'll tie a noose or bury myself alive Until the dirt covers up my grave and silence is my ally Tonight (Chorus) Paradise x2 (Verse 2) When I awake, I'm in my dreams I won't stop until she screams Its the reoccurring theme That's in my reoccurring dreams Because It's paradise, with gold roads and faded glory Bloody pictures on the wall represent the same story Just a singular, distant, kid thats on the black side Not the color of his skin, but his inner rap lines Who's trapped inside himself because expression never helps And his thoughts just seems to melt with all these thoughts that never spilt Like a mission, blame it on the f**ing prohibition Just alone and slicing beats like I'm a f**ing mortician I got, black cards, black Jays and a black heart And the neon got dull so I had to restart, because I'm in (Chorus) Paradise x2 (Verse 3) I'm painting pictures of lies and forging pictures of truth Cuz half the b**hes don't even understand what I do Yet they judge me, but f** it my only market And f** these these other rappers, my only targets I'm breaking bad,now f** the I love I never had The Only thing I need is cash so, I'm past broke Know I'm telling my story and f** the allegory And this white sh**, f**in with this white b**h, she getting alright I was 7 and my mom was working night shift Call them bad b**hes, man they ain't even bad b**hes They only care about the D and the mad riches I'm sad with you but she more about past n***as Started metaphors and ended up with metaphoric My sh** is intellectual, I'm lecturing these n***as Telling me I'm too contextual and so I'm all work Checking vocal textures, and checking up on her but god bless her Playing dress up, in her dresser Undress her, til she fess up Take her dress off bout the other n***as that she wit, and he know better Than to f** with her, but I'm just too damn ignorant and don't even give a mother f** So f** her (Outro) "Blessed with something we call life Though I do not believe in a god or a higher being I believe we are god We are everything and nothing at the same time We are lost in a life where social integrity has become our world Though love comes in many forms, its impossible to feel When you blind yourself with limitation that would otherwise be non existent If we were hesitant to create such things before we destined ourselves for failure." -Revency