Dream Entact - Solanine lyrics

[Verse 1] When I'm lucid I wish to lose id, Instead I lose it Self consumed, in my room pursuing music Momma asking "Where the fruits is? Why are you useless? Why are you clueless about the world? Rav, your room stinks!" She thinks I don't give two sh**s Truth is, she might be right I fail to see the light in both gold and family pride Am I the catcher in the rye? Batsh** in disguise? Tossed reality for an imaginable life? Bout to be kicked out the house, get detached from paradise Only recognize this then, mirror shows a parasite With a shifty pair of eyes In this shifting paradigm I ain't sh**, apparently Parents think that I don't try Trying to fight the system, bound to play into its hands, man They say stay grounded, but the floor is lava for the madman Upside down approach, in the lava doing handstands Probably ain't no different, just a bad plan [Hook] {​​​​​​​This is what it feels like}​​​​​​​ repeated This is what real life feels like Whenever you feel nice, realize Yo, I gotta take advice There's a demon lurking in this town I gotta jump the rail of life This is what real life feels like Yup, this is what real life feels like [Verse 2] See, this is what it feels like When nobody looking for you, but you still hide When you been kicked your habits like the pill life Took that monkey off your back but it still bites Will I ever get anywhere but right here? Chasing happiness but never getting quite near Every waking moment most vivid of nightmares I'm weird, f** it, I'll admit it, man, I care And they say he was a thug I never knew my dad When my mom looks at me, what it is she looking at? Ever since I got kicked out of school for cooking crack Then pushing crack, I wonder if she sees me as my crooked dad I've f**ed up too many times, and I still might Tried to k** myself and failed, still don't feel alive Grasping at straws in the dark with no real light I ain't feeling great This is what real life feels like Right? [Hook]