Double Negative - Scar Tissue lyrics

"We'll all become what we hate the most at times. It's the struggle against that person that makes us able to speak the truth. In time this will be one more scar, and you'll look be to for strength, trust me when I say this for I was there, and now I'm here and the pains there only in the memory. Everything pa**es in time and begins anew. It's the times when the bullsh** starts again, that you hear His presence and warning sign and reminder that even the most bitter taste can heal." [Tones] My whole entire life had to deal with heart issues Jumping out moving cars, trying to heal the scar tissue We all become what we hate the most at times The pain is still there but it's only in the mind Underneath the black clouds, knowing nothing but hurt If you felt the verse then you were touched by the words I wonder everyday how old I want to live to be Or what I'd give to see a vision, would could ?? to free Struggling against that person, that ?? isn't me It's a battle between what I show and the inner me Deep in concentration, soul contemplating My destiny, my energy, my memory fade Cuz in time you look back and realize You are best in essence to even be alive And all the truths kept in your brain are real And proof that even the most bitter of pains can heal [Coast] She scares for my soul but they already heal Try to figure out where I lost control of the deal It's like scar tissue that I wish you saw Sarcasm mr. know-it-all I can't take no more man, the way raw Push me down in a hole, put me under the floor It's like I'm fighting with myself but it's bigger than that Like I love what I hate, man I figure it's wack Speaking on life, destiny is holding the mic It's like it's true what I said mothaf**a I write I spent hours in my head, I'm already dead I don't really feel remorseful, it was already said I need answers, cancer's infecting the world If I live will I give what I got to the ?? I blame God for this gift but I'm saying my prayers Let me in when I ring and I'm coming upstairs [Coal Cash] I'm covered in scars, been picking at scabs relentless I send this to the stars, still waiting for God to end this Mend this in our hearts, the parts are barely working Not certain to where to start, I depart to find that person Who spent his time ?? rehearsing with sk**s bursting Immersed in staying ill, tryna build a perfect version Adverb and k** a sermon, burn vermin to the ?? If the thrill was worth the yearning, earning props on top of burning Confirming I was turning this burning to a flash flood Fuel the room with hate as I escaped to what the mask was With vast d** to bug shrug the burden, hide the hurting Working to stay alive but I died inside that person Somehow I survived to arrive inside a stranger But the scars are just my sides to reflect the tides of anger So now I hang a noose for when that ego boost is felt It helps the scars become the proof of how I used to be myself [Tabs] There's a hundred ways I f**ed up, a thousand things I done wrong A million ways to run amuck, it's hard to sum it up in one song I admit I'm guilty, my hands got filthy for the progress I knew it would make me strong if it didn't k** me in the process I had to start over and swallow every ounce of pride That ?? have scarred over, and the broken bones have calcified My dreams they try to k** 'em, and fill them with formaldehyde But they ain't about to die, shadow of d**h'll never cloud my sky It's fate of dark when them poisonous darts hit you It rips through scar tissue from heart issues that God gives you But if y'all live through the predicament the bitterness will disperse No longer to be plagued by the ignorance of this Earth I know that it hurts but it's barely a limitation It's liberation from jail if you can prevail through tribulation I can stare at it blindly, just when I swear it's behind me I finally become aware there's something there to remind me...sing