Dopamine - Sick Lie Future lyrics

What if i had stayed to save myself, would you mind What if this was done in self defence would you mind What if i had stayed and just played dumb, on your side What if this was more than self pretence, sick lie future calling me Need you, warning, never going to catch you falling Bleed you, swarm in, sick lie future calling What if i had taken everything, would you mind What if i had choosen not to stare, sick lie Need you, warning, never going to catch you falling Bleed you, swarm in, sick lie future calling And I feel like i'm missing something