Detail - Tabula Rasa lyrics

[Verse 1: San Williams] Walking past still waters in Ithaca's valley Smokin on that burning bush exodus Cali Feeling like, all my joints invincible Stans rolling that vintage Cavs and Berettas flow Elegance is the presence This sh** right here feel like tambourines, Sunday's best, and reverends Clash of the Titans whenever I see my reflection Got me reflecting and stressing about old friends who you know would take a bullet for you Same ones who fire shots so it's suicide too! And I can't help but feel guilty for the past The mask that I'm wearing was jealousy And now you're telling me you miss me from the other side How was I gon let it slide ugh! This sh** remind me of my Honda Civic That sh** remind me how I never hit it I wasn't the type to stress and fall in love Man It's hard to admit, it's hard to admit, man it's hard to admit it I'm mixing drinks to separate the pain I miss the tears like dessert miss the rain I miss, I really miss my Granddad I miss believing Ma when she say “It's okay.” I miss not always worrying about my Grandma thinking God will make a way, God will make a way ugh Tears on my dinner plate Fears in my mental state And time is not an option when you broke as f** It's hard for us to split the pain so f** they loving us! No rehearsal Reversal I do it how i do it all the time Cause they gon hearse you if they see you past your curfew We're all “hood n***as” to them so they hurt you And you a part of me so man I feel your pain To them we're enemies which make us all feel the same I'm tired of feeling inhumane you know you feel insane When institutions built to break you down like they were f**ing playing JENGA! [Bridge: San Williams] And we ain't relatives I feel like all of y'all my relatives But this struggle sh** That sh** ain't relative Look me in my pain and see how real it is