Dark Side Cowboys - Paralyzed lyrics

Quite early that morning Was awake long before that beep sound (beep) Outside my window there was a fire or could it just be the sunrise I never had known I met them that morning, I had nothing to hide But the d**h of my Brother and the past of my life Was ready to fail, I was ready to die But all that I got was a tear in my eye, tell me How would you consume me my father Would I reach in despair, see the hate in her face Then be ripped into pieces and fed to her man Was paralysed, scared of my inner world Rebuilding my hope, then seeking a way to get through I stumbled back home, so sure, but I did not understand Had a picture of her and her father, she was holding his hand In my kitchen the butcher, in the bedroom a child I wasn't aware that the judgement was mine She lay a hand on my forehead and told me to sleep She just might have seen a child within me Kind of Paralysed, scared of my inner worlds Rebuilding my hope, then seeking a way to get through Why do I wish to forget all these things that still, long after lives on in my dreams I was Paralysed scared of my inner worlds Rebuilding my hope, then seeking a way to get through to you...