Dark Half - So Far Gone lyrics

[Verse 1: Flatline] Pills to the left, got sweaty grip on the right My pain, confusion, triggers another round with the wife Will I continue to beat this man? Destined..I'll beat that a** tonight I need to make some grand decisions, or give up on this life My life perspective is wolfin' sheep skinnas Survival of the fittest, f** the music biz Father, brother, friend, lover, ain't you none of em Don't you even try to out rap, you only got one album We close to pushin 30, what the f** you think is the outcome There ain't no money in Horrorcore and psychopathic ain't knocking If they did open door to get paid is that a proper Ain't too generous, ain't nothing more to adore and fat wallets You ain't that good and you ain't the mothaf**a, that's just being honest Takes two more hits and a gift close your eyes and I promise Say some goodbyes in your mind and try to picture the strongest Memory of your best time (Daddy I love you) [Hook: Ian] Have you ever felt like this? When you swing and always miss Constantly we all are pissed You hate me, you hate me And I will never mend All these demons in my head All the water that we trenched [Verse 2: Flatline] I am so far gone that my mind can't even function and this path That I'm on could only lead to destruction I'm searching everyday, looking for a way out People tell me I'm ok, but they don't know what I'm about Cause I haven't slept in days, and my eyes are gettin redder Take another hit, and sh** will start to get better But I got no job, and don't contribute to society And the only thing that scares me are these thoughts of sobriety I'm hidin' in my room, I haven't seen the sun for days I can't get my sh** together, is this more than just a phase? Now I'm hearing sirens and I'm feelin paranoid So I grab the pipe again, just so I could fill the void When the smoke clears, I can feel the pain inside My paranoid thoughts are now thoughts of suicide Got the pipe in one hand, loaded gun in the other Do I take another hit, or bring tears to my mother? [HOOK] [Verse 3: Damien] Darkness surrounds me, my vision is so cloudy I'm rockin back and forth in the corner with a shotty Contemplating suicide, I pump it back, and let it ride Four slugs inside my brain My life, I just cannot maintain You couldn't understand the pain that I've been through Walk a mile in my shoes, I bet you'd miss bein' you So f** you, forget about me I'm dead and gone now, right in your dreams [Verse 4: Ian] Pray for me momma, because I feel I'm going nuts Wondering if she would ever love me for the touch It's like they can feel me until they see what the f** is up I'm wondering if she ever cared Tell me you'll always be right here But I can't get away from the fact that I stress so much up in this life And I can't run away from the fact that day will shed some light It's like in my dark days, the demons stay and watch my flesh decay I'm just waiting for the day they're taking my soul away