Dark Day Dawning - Purest Intent lyrics

If I had forever I would live this silence I would feed this disease Of which you are the cause You are the cure So hated and yet so sought Penetrating my everything I thought I did I thought I would Be able to put this off forever But now as my time fades away It seems a new reality hits And the insured tomorrow is not a constant for me With this impending d**h I admit to myself With me shall die my petty dreams The blood washes off and yet the shame prevails Tearing from the eyesockets the tellers of this tale To die with nothing Is a choice I've made To derpive myself Not telling you Just how I live through this Never will you hear my confessions Like the obsession that was born of crayons and toys And shall die with me today The blood washes off and yet the shame prevails Tearing from the eyesockets the tellers of this tale It's untold And now this loathesome beast This would've-could've-should've spectre Will crawl into my d**hbed And I shall smell it's foul breath My d**h will pain me tenfold Because no one will know To hell with the spent years and f** the shed tears I'll burn the books and sketches But my guilt will keep knocking Knocking Knocking on my bedroom door