DANSONN BEATS - If I Could, Part II lyrics

[Verse 1] I remember when my brain was filled with darkness Before I figured out, where my heart is I did some stupid sh**, I'm not the smartest People got hurt, and that was the hardest But I'm just doing my part it's, not beautiful, but it's me And if you got a problem with that, then diss me I am listening, to everything that you say Yea, it used to get to my head, but not today I got this diamond, and I hold it tightly I know who my friends are, they stand right by me They're not hiding, they're not being slimy They're talking to me, and not behind me Fake friends? (fake friends) I ain't got time G I only hang with people, who actually likes my rhyming It's not a small part of me, it's my whole life it Will be my love, until I find a wifey, but [Hook x2] If I could, then I would take it back If I could, then I would just quit rap If I could, then I would make a sick track But I can't, cause this is where I'm at [Verse 2] I fall in love, yea it happens often But's it's rarely something that I feed, and get lost in Cause it's always one-side, it's exhausting So, I burry it deep down, like a coffin But then you came around, and gave me something That made me start to believe, in real loving Cause we're like a match, that ain't no-one touching And I'm not talking about s**, I don't want f**ing We started talking, because of music Then we became friends, felt like we were fusing We joked about love, but I think it was abusive Cause now that it's real, we don't know what we're doing I put the cards on the table, and then you did But then you took ‘em back, now I feel stupid I don't blame you, can't force your love But now I don't know what to do, with this crush, it's tough, because [Hook x2] If I could, then I would make you love If I could, then I would give you trust If I could, then I'd believe in us But I can't, cause that would be a bluff [Verse 3] I got this thing with my family, and my dad That is making me both angry, and sad Cause now I see it from both sides, oh why? Do I feel like I have to choose - go left, or go right? I love them all, but they don't like each other Or maybe they do, but they don't act like brothers When they write each other, there's venom in the words So I feel like my whole family tree, is doing a purge, it hurts [Hook x2] If I could, then I would make them forget If I could, then I'd delete what was said If I could, then I would make sure that they met But I can't, they're not ready yet