Daniel Spinks - ​small pale humans: nine lyrics

I am afraid to say my wife's name out loud. Even before I married her I couldn't say it. I was afraid that somehow I had learned the wrong name. Or that I would mispronounce it in a grotesque way. It's only four letters. But should I say it like "merry" or "marry?” How long should I spend articulating the "r" sound? When I do say her name I try to take turns alternating between the two vowel sounds. I look for clues to see which way is the right way. I know she judges me.