Dallas Kacey - Even Closer lyrics

[Verse 1 - Dallas Kacey] It's been 3 long years & it still ain't really hit me I've acquired new fears Im sure the advice you would give me Would add light to this darkness that im in Livin' life with intentions to rise to heaven Yet Im fallin back in sin Writin' letters to you that I know I'll never get to send Mailman don't deliver there Only way you'll get'ems if I get up there I know right from wrong, I see the stairway to heaven, yet im sittin on the second step writing songs Gramps, is this for me? Send me a sign or somethin In the studio alone, no one'll see me cry or nothin, Let me know! Am I to chase this dream? Is this a trap? Is it God that gave me flow & put these wings upon my back? Is that the reason why I rap like An officer who's dog said there was d** in the car & im lookin in with My flashlight.. Except, the dog is lyin And the flashlight is my flow & the d** is competition Which is was im lookin for And I can't find'em Sure to break out, like a caged rhino, I got sk**, just need luck Start callin me marciano A young legend, that everybody know is undefeated & every youngin' under him, studied'em but couldn't beat'em See I'm leavin' a legacy.. & yet im only 19 I can't believe my eyes My life feelin like a pipe dream Feel the Long Beach in me, rep my city right, hear my voice & see the city lights, playin my songs considered sight seein You see it now? These n***as just kickin' it like a 3 & out Im tryna work & be the cat these youngins grow up readin bout It ain't whole lot of role models in my profession That's why I, go outta my way to give'em these lessons See these youngins, all for gettin' they cheese But they forgot who got'em here, so they dont get on they knees And nah, its no pause needed Man see thats im sayin The first thing come to they mind is head & not prayin, see how they brain work? They soak up what the hear & then mix it in with they fears Before you know you gotta kid that put a front up for they peers 13 drinkin beers & sh** Smokin weed, man they shouldn't even be near the sh** The hell is wrong with us? Im bout to make a change tho All the while Im sacrificin all my time in hopes that I can shine & have say so Cause short term grindin' equals long time success & I understand it takes a lil time to be the best Not to Mention All the time & attention That I used to give my girl I now give to the world & hope they like me Such a switch of scenery Goin' from someone who I know you mean the world to To speakin with people that dont believe in me Aye I know she be needin' cause when Im gone im busy But she out here all alone Man I wish I could bring her with me, but I can't So everytime I write it might not always look like it But its her im tryna paint, these typa pictures Man they stained in my brain irreplaceable She the reason for these voices in my hear that scream "I gotta make it" So I work, Til im tired, then I work some more I write until I remember it twice recite it in my dreams til early morn I hardly get the chance to rest Barely catchin my breath But thats what happens when you catchin' this wreck These cats all about cashin they check But ignore the supporters thats snappin they neck everytime ya song come on.. Like, forreal.. You are appreciated.. I pray the day never come when ya'll get to see me faded Gotta make that promise to myself, unless I win a grammy Then its hand me that bottle o' top shelf All this work ain't helpin, its stressin me out Can't even socialize, I tell'em God Bless & be out Haven't been eatin Always tired but I been sleepin 6 day work weeks I get to rest half the weekend, then it's right bakc.. Sunday mornin, I go to Church Come home & go to work I gotta write raps They ain't gon write themselves n***a And even when tape done Im in the streets slangin'em I gotta sell n***a How that make you feel? When the signed cats ain't doin nothin But im out' here tryna hustle for the deal I be bustin on the real I done dodged more bullets & spit more 16's then the homies from the beach that tussle with the steel No busters, WC! Can't nobody touch us n***as tryna rap but can't out rhyme my brothers If you heard'em you'll love'em They do every track justice Yaw just bust weak 16's of sweet nothings These bustas, got'em all shook? They leave flustered Never heard a brotha so young with such comfort It's a gift from God bruh I swear it is, I hope he remember my face when the time come for me to be wearin his Gotta get that jesus piece, but I might not rock it tho Just wear my wooden rosary & keep the bling in my pocket So they im stayin humble Then get to my brothers house & pull it out my pocket like "you know you see them diamonds n***a" Gotta shine a lil bit I wanted that since I was a lil kid & seen KanYe all on my tv Convinced myself school was a waste o' time but if I can figure how out to place a rhyme That rich rapper gon be me I guess im half way there.. I got the rap part down Still workin on the rich part but I ain't worried Man it's all god's time Ain't in a hurry If it's meant to be it will come true I put my trust in God's hands enough to know he'll always come through Its all a matter of time