Dae Zhen - Life. lyrics

[Intro: Lauryn Hill] One day I'm gonna understand [Intro: Dae Zhen] Yo, free Ms. Lauryn Hill [Verse 1: Dae Zhen] Imagine hearing your calling, but being too scared to answer it If I ain't sippin' poison, I'm puffin' on something cancerous Nightmares in my dreams, I can't handle it I'm waving off the blunt cause' the Cannabis just enhances it It hurts knowin' Elena might be right about me I'm not sh**, she's prolly doint just fine without me But I swear this music sh**'s all I think about Eat sleeping, and breathing, the reason that I go weeks without Eating a decent me, like "Tell is it worth it"? I'm murdering verses, til it's flirting with the verdict Heard I deserve it, the urge is almost perverted If you rap you should be nervous, I'm throwing dreams in the furnace And burning learnings of peasants concerning sermons and reverends No pre-determined heaven, for a black heart like Kevin It all falls down like 9/11 If I really am a genius hope I die by 27 And please don't pray for me, thankfully I have came see That all that angered me was so intentionally aimed at me Sorry mama but this college sh** just ain't for me Wasting more time and your money just sounds insane to me Know you're embarra**ed to say your son is a rapper Just say I do music and spare yourself all the laugter Today I'm lazy, today I'm a day day dreamer Tomorrow you gone be choosing between a range and a beamer [Chourus 1: Dae Zhen] Just trust mama I ain't depending on luck mama I know you think your son is nuts mama But I'll be taking care of us mama Ash to ash dust to dust mama Might take some time to adjust mama And I ain't living for no lust mama Yeah I'll be taking care of us mama [Verse 2: Dae Zhen] Spit every verse like it might be my last breath Learned a lot of life lessons from watching my dad's d**h No time for pity and I ain't asking for sympathy But he was twice the man that most of us could pretend to be Looked at his body like "what the f** do we do with it?" And all the world told us was "bury him and get used to it." Brian picked up a habit, my momma picked up a crucifix 8-year-old man of the house, now thats some shoes to fit Lost souls begging for direction Brian went right to college, my Mom was left with depression Crying on my shoulder, but how can I console her I'm barely old enough to hold my playstation controller Yeah This the type of sh** you were supposed to explain to me I'm pouring out a 40 and praying you ain't ashamed of me Empty heart and wallet, guess it's all symbolic Sorry your son is just a rappin' alcoholic f** the world and f** em if they judge me I'll be damned if I don't profit from these rhythms in my blood stream A life in ruin from the tomb to the womb But it's better late than never, so I guess I'll so you soon [Chourus 2: Dae Zhen] Trust pops I ain't depending on luck pops I know you think your son is nuts pops But I'll be taking care of us pops [Outro: Dae Zhen] Rest in peace, Theodore Anthony Lawrence III Always missed, never forgotten