I take your hand We walk towards where the roses once grew I lie back in the gra** and dream of how it once was The rubbishstrewn streets Riperising smell of gutters and rain The children abandoned Mother recalls child in pool What is that that lies? deadchilddead I have such nightmares and you're all in all of them It's worse than you or i can ever know On the edge of the clouds we crouch We smile and spit The pool of saliva coruscates below our feet It shifts Children with knives begin to rise from it They laugh and blow kisses at the moon We think it's the rain I see a bird move onto the table in my garden Its beak scoops up the seeds The green of the gra** and the blue of the sky Are immense and terrifying Everything seems so close so very very close Should a storm come Should a storm break and halo all around us As some savage and blind god Jerking his hands out to us The birds drop all around us I walk into the altar room All the buddhas are smashed there Avalokitesvara's hundred faces lie shattered I have done this I walk to the makeshift red brick altar a hundred years ago there is a small bra** image there I have built this The red and black ants mill around Unknown journeys I take my lighter and torch them I take my lighter and torch them I weep i weep The ants scatter or writhe I take my lighter and torch them torch them I have done this I am surrounded by bu*terflies The child's legs lay smashed Please pray for him she says to me Too late Alas oh so too late I see the twinkling stars I drop a photograph I bend to pick it up My heart leaps as i see your face Stare up at me from the paper As if still alive on this earth When i return my eyes to the stars They gathered They pucker And are blind And are blind So lost are we Oh what have i become I have become that i hate I have become that i shall say no The bird is dead now alas A voice whispers to me And says nothing nothing There is nothing I look to my right and see her face again And again the world disappears And all fall down All fall down All fall down i all fall down All fall down i all fall down We all fall down We all fall down