Culture VI - I Still... lyrics

[Brolik] Stressed and depressed it's true I can't hide it I tried it My future's undecided aggression You can see it in my facial expression I try not to show it as much as I can They say I got a problem drink like my old man Just when I feel I can't I know I can Be successful only find failure when I search You see a brother smile not realizin' he hurts Lookin' for direction Grandma suggestin' church But I don't like mysteries and that's how the Lord works At first I thought I'd be in college with the pig skin Rap is a hobby then I fell in love with the pen Normally nothin' bothers me d**h follows me All I do is bob and weave life is a test Failed again will I succeed yes All I do is have to believe trees Keep a brother calm though my sanity is gone Look at the scars on my arm People wanna know where they came from or what do they mean It kind of looks like I had a fight with Wolverine No dream the only thing I have is faith I know it's more pleasant on that Pearly Gate But wait hopefully I have a couple more years left Then I'll man up and stand face to face with d**h [SixXx] The chip on my shoulder's a boulder now I'm older now my blood runs colder now [SixXx] I ask why did they die and why am I cryin'? Why am I tired of relyin' on rhymin'? Me I've been worse than the persons I speak of I'm cursed and I wreak of perversions a freak of Nature I hate to be b**hin' complainin' So I smoke alot of weed take a fifth to the brain and Just let the pain inside of me fester I've cried I confess but a side of me's messed up See cryin' it hurts more than helps cuz in this case The tears on my face symbolize I'm a disgrace I've looked for a book or a God to believe in I've reached and I've tried but inside I'm a weaklin' I'm tired of seekin' a sign or an omen I'm tired I'm broken tired of copin' Tired of hopin' I make it I'll make it Tired of chokin' I take it I've wasted A whole lot of time and a whole lot of years Smoked a whole lot of dimes drank a whole lot of beers Not a whole lot of fear when it comes to my d**h or My takin' of breath's just a break from the pressure I ache and possess a threshold of pain I've become this numbness inject Novocaine I've searched for the answers I've searched for the truth Man I've searched for the reasons I've searched for the proof The chip on my shoulder's a boulder now I'm older now my blood runs colder now [Brolik] While I'm here I gotta work have eternity to rest I learned Checkers never knew life was like Chess [SixXx] Born precious livin' a life that's lifeless And the pressure's diggin' a knife in my chest The chip on my shoulder's a boulder now I'm older now my blood runs colder now