CulaZen - Macho Lullaby lyrics

I just hate to be alone in this world baby girl I just hate to be alone in this world (2x) Lately it's been too much of a chore just to survive.. But how can I ask you for help when I can't even help myself? Come to think of it why do I always suffer alone When all I ever do is help everyone else In my house I've been with the stealth Hiding from all the pain I felt And feel again its needles piercing velvet The main cause is wealth I ask When will this life be blissful? I'm tired of eating sh** stew I'm tired of nearly getting fired Kicked out of my igloo I'm dying from demons beating my a** no lack of jiujitsu They pin me down like Prometheus pecking at all my issues Picking up all these tissues I'm never using but just in case Suicidal survival is looking too tainted as of late When I was younger I had so many dreams of being great Now only time I'm dreaming is when I'm forced to sleep Each and every other day This is Cula's colorful mind displayed in black and grey I just pray I'll be ok Baby I just want to be ethereal Love me like you love the sun and stars Worship me like the damned soul I am On your mental I see ultraviolet scars(2x) I just hate to be alone in this world baby girl I just hate to be alone in this world (2x) Lately it's been too much of a journey just to get up I used to search for glory now I need reasons to stay awake Never worried about the picture that I painted for an audience That didn't even care enough to memorize my name Alfonso has no time to go on quests for a dame- But damn do I got time to really pick apart my brain In the darkness I become a neuro-scientist And test my calculations on the only one I ever had to blame Guess who? Where were you when diapers were still a mandatory Its been survival tactics since then call it Amanda's story Believe in me when I say just like preying mantis I plot in patience picture myself on stages so famous That I pay people paychecks every show I do Yeah that's me giving back Work for me I'll work for you and all you do you'll get it back That goes to my family too the main source of my drive to live Cuz how could I take my life when I was chosen as your kid? Chosen this chosen that Comes around a lot in life Choices made I chose to rap and prove just what I've got in life I was picked so that means I gotta represent how I feel So lll stand on the sands of time with my flag as king of the hill Ethereal.. Scars.. Scars.. Ethereal.. Scars.. Scars.. Baby I just want to be ethereal Love me like you love the sun and stars Worship me like the damned soul I am On your mental I see ultraviolet scars(3x) (Baby I just want to be ethereal.. Love me like you love the sun and stars. Worship me like the damned soul I am On your mental I see ultraviolet scars) quieter /